Saturday, October 21, 2006
[*f.Am.iL.Y*] ...had a family time out today. hmmm. everytime when i'm with my family, though sometimes it may be unhappy due to our differences in opinions, i'd still cherish the time spent with them and i'll feel like the most fortunate girl in the world. but sometimes, fear might strike and i'll be afraid of loosing anyone of them. i know the time will come, but for me and to me, i'm not ready to loose anyone of them yet. i still need them, it's not that i will not need them at all in the future, just that i'm still very much dependent on them.
my family is not perfect. in fact, nobody's family is perfect at all. but it's ok cos we're all human beings and naturally, we sin. anyhow, i thank God for them. when i was young, i'd use to wish for the perfect parents, i failed to see why God gave them to me, that i was so blessed to have a complete family unlike other kids who may yearn for their parents to be together. but now, having gone through numerous experience and having grown a little wiser, i know that i'm fortunate to have a complete loving family.
in view of my upcoming trip to prague with the choir and the need for winter clothing, my daddy brought me to look around for them today, with my family. yup. to me, i feel that shopping for such stuffs is a chore, but i still need to do it. anyway, the trench coats whatsoever cost more than $100. using my own money, i'd feel the pain, but my parents wouldn't mind spending it on me. i'm a blessed child. and God has blessed me abundantly.
many times in our lives, we'd complain or feel and think that God isn't blessing us at all and not as much as He 'should'. but the thing is, all the small things that happen around us are all His blessings. not missing the bus, reaching home before it rains, having food and a comfortable home to live in, these are all His blessings to and for us. but we, take all these for granted that God should take care and provide them naturally. but He is not obliged to in the first place. He does all these because HE LOVE US.
as each day passes, our parents grow older, more frail and more susceptible to the germs and bacterias and viruses out there. a fall could be fatal. and i can't help but worry for them. it sad for me to see them alone. even to imagine them alone on the street is saddening for me. i love my parents so so much and i'd love to spent more time with them. i can only pray that God will not take them yet. i just can't live without them yet. i'm not strong and independent for that to happen.
i'm not sure how many of you have thought about this. i'm not sure how many of you, though you complain about your parents, have thought what you would do if they left you suddenly, or one day their time is up? has it occured to you how your life would be without them? has it occured to you that subtlely, they have already become and have formed almost the core of your life and mybe your very existence and your personality? you were born of your parents and how they brought you up mould your very personality and character. their genes were passed on to you and their blood runs in the veins that is in your body. have you thought of all these before?
before you start lamenting in future about your parents/ family, think about all these. and thereafter, would you still lament them, scold them, scream at them, be rude to them, and be angry at them? think about it. it's no harm afterall.
love,
cheryn ...
posted at 10/21/2006 10:51:00 pm
